Saturday, July 14, 2007

The Voice of God

How does God speak to me? It’s definitely not in an audible, booming voice coming down from heaven, like you see on TV or read about in the Old Testament, although that would sure be cool.

I’m one of those “One-Track-Mind” sort of people. I get something in my head and it’s very difficult for me to rid myself of the thought until I act on it. Like when I decide I want to purchase something. I think about it non-stop until I actually go out and buy it. Good examples are my Espresso Machine, my iPod, and my laptop. It drives my husband absolutely insane. I’ll talk about it until I’m blue in the face and ask him a million times, “Do you think I should do it?” until finally he gets fed up and says, “Just go buy the darn thing!!” Admittedly, this has worked to my advantage in several situations. (See Java 4 Me).

Lately, I’ve been pondering a new ministry/hobby. It’s a stretch for me, a little out of my comfort zone. I keep talking myself out of it. It’s too time consuming, I’m not the right person for the job, I’m not gifted enough, people will laugh at me…on and on. But for some reason, I can’t get this thing out of my head. I feel compelled to do it, even though I’m pretty sure I CAN’T do it.

So I return to my question about how God speaks to me? I woke up this morning thinking about this thing. Literally, the first conscious thought that popped into my head. I went out for a walk and prayed, “God, what do you want me to do?” At the same time I’m praying, I’m thinking about the fact that maybe the reason it’s on my mind is because GOD is laying it on my heart. But it’s difficult to discern my own obsessive-compulsive thought patterns from God nudging me. So because I’m thinking about it, does that indicate that God is speaking about it? I’m not sure, but I am sure that others must struggle with the same questions.

The one thing I do know, is that God is faithful to speak through His word and through quiet times of reflection between the two of us. So for now I will continue to pray and listen and a request that you would pray with me for wisdom and open ears to hear God speak (even if it is in a wee small voice).

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi sunshine, what no two-by four upside the head????
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you, says the Lord. Psalm 32:8
I will be praying for wisdom and if you decide to "teach" I'll be there to learn! Love Jen

C. Johnson said...

Hey...glad you are back!! Thanks for the prayers and the scripture. Most days I would love to have the 2x4 upside the head if it would mean knowing exactly what God wanted from me! On the other hand, "He has shown you, oh man...what the Lord requires of you. To act justly, love mercy and walk humbly with our God". Micah 6:8

Anonymous said...

Sometimes you just have to step out in faith...and pray that the Lord will shut the door if it's not HIS will.
Love,
Mom

Anonymous said...

P.S. YOU CAN DO IT!

Praying for you!
Mom

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