Tuesday, January 15, 2008

In Search of Sun

It happens to me every year. The Holiday hoopla has passed. The decorations have been boxed up and returned to their shelves in the garage. My New Year’s euphoria is starting to wear off and the reality of my life settles back in. Now that I’m not quite so distracted, I’ve taken the time to look around me. What I see is disturbing. What I see is…snow. Lots and lots of snow.

I realized over the last couple days that I’ve been in a really lousy mood. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, but I could definitely feel myself struggling. And then it dawned on me…I haven’t seen the sun in about 10 days. If you live in Seattle, you’re probably thinking, Big deal. 10 days. That’s nothing. But, that’s exactly the reason I’ve chosen not to live in Seattle. Bottom line is, I need the sun and I’m starting to get desperate.

I know it’s getting bad when I start checking weekend fares to places like Santa Fe, New Mexico, for no other reason than to take an airport shuttle to a hotel with a pool and just lay there. I don’t want to shop, I don’t want to swim, I don’t want to see the sights. I just want to lay my over sized beach towel on the concrete and feel the warm cement on my back and the sunshine on my face.

Today I woke up to fog. Contrary to what you might initially think, I couldn’t be happier to it. You see, I’ve lived here long enough to know that fog is a very good sign. Fog in the morning means there’s warm air up there somewhere. Fog in the morning means there’s hope for the day. Fog in the morning means the sun is coming.

The fog reminds me not to lose hope where the weather is concerned and not to lose hope in other areas of my life. Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck in the fog. I can’t see the road more than a couple of feet in front of me. I’m not sure where I’m going or how long it will be until the fog lifts. I must live by faith in the one who can see the whole picture. I must trust him to be the “white stripe” that I follow. But most importantly, I know if I’m in the fog that very soon, the Son will reveal himself.


Anonymous said...

Great ending statment.

Anonymous said...

Amen Sister! Thank you for putting into words what the rest of us can not. Love ya J

Cari Johnson said...

Thanks for the encouragement, guys!


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