Wednesday, July 29, 2009

My Delusional Life

How many calories per day do you eat? I was looking at a women's health website and the question was on the computer screen in front of me. Hmmm, let me see... I gave it some thought. Gee I must eat about 1500 calories a day. Yes, that sounds about right. I entered it in. Later that day I was reconsidering the question and decided I'd think about all the things I'd eaten over the past couple days and try to make sure my guess was correct. I'll spare you
the gory details, but let's just say that 1500 calories barely got me to lunch time, forget about dinner (and the dessert I had afterward).

After that, I started thinking of all the questions in my life that I have misconceived answers to. How often do you floss your teeth? (I'm sure it's most days of the week.) How many times a week do you vacuum? (Virtually everyday I told the salesman at Sears.) How much do you spend per month on lattes and hair care products? (Not more than a couple bucks...honest.)

I quickly realized I live a completely delusional life. I consider myself "good" in a lot of areas until I take a closer look. Same holds true for my spiritual life. I compare with others and tell myself that I'm not that bad, but when I measure my actions and thoughts against the holiness of God, I realize just how delusional I am. He asks me to take a good look at him and get a proper perspective. Yikes.

So next time someone asks you how many Reese's Peanut Butter Cups you eat in a week. Think long and hard about your answer. And next time you're tempted to judge your own goodness based on those around you, think long and hard about the goodness of God.

4 comments:

Kelly H-Y said...

Great post, Cari!

Stephanie said...

Funny you wrote about this, my wednesday night bible study at church was on this very thing...

I am also a Pastor's wife...and I am really struggling right now.
It is 12am and I am up because I can't sleep after fighting with my husband.

People just have no idea...

Stephanie said...

Funny you wrote about this, my wednesday night bible study at church was on this very thing...

I am also a Pastor's wife...and I am really struggling right now.
It is 12am and I am up because I can't sleep after fighting with my husband.

People just have no idea...

CariJ said...

You are so right, Stephanie! I'm sorry to hear you had a rough night. I sure know how those go. Prayers for a better day today. Stop by my blog anytime...it's nice to have a fellow PW around!
~Cari

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