Monday, April 05, 2010
Save Me From Myself
There have been times in my life when I desperately wanted something and didn't get it. Usually, whatever I wanted was not the best thing for me even though I was sure it was the undeniable answer to all my problems.
I seem to find myself in that same situation now. I irrationally want something that I know I can't have and wouldn't be a great idea, but the desire still stalks me. At times, I'm able to put aside the thought for awhile, but it lurks in the shadows and just when I think I've put the whole thing behind me, it jumps out to taunt me.
Luckily for me, God has a way of saving me from myself and from my selfish desires. Looking back on my circumstances, I am beyond thankful that I didn't get those things I was so sure I needed. He has rescued me from my own stupid desires time and time again.
If there's one thing I've learned, it's that I can trust him. Some of the things I've wanted just took a long, long time to receive (like having kids), and some things were never right for me.
And so, for this decision, I will leave it in his hands, trusting that he will do what is best for me in his perfect love. He'll also do what's best for you. If you have a cry of your heart that seems to be going unanswered, know that there is always hope and also know that somehow, some way, God may be saving you...from yourself.