Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I feel an F word coming on. It's uncharacteristic and I'm not sure what's come over me, but nonetheless, I feel it. I've tried to hide my true emotion, but it's coming down to the wire and I just don't think I can hold it back any longer. Lest your opinion of me be falling, I want to make it clear that The Pastor is not innocent in all this. He's been egging me on. He's been teasing me, hiding things from me, and texting my friends behind my back. I pretty much blame him for the whole thing.
I've tried to deny my situation, but it doesn't seem to go away. Instead it feels like a time bomb ticking deep inside of me. I truly want to take the high road (actually, I'd like to take any road out of town) but I'm left with no choice. I've heard of other people in my predicament trying to mask the reality of the situation. They try to make it better with words like Fabulous or Sporty, but so far, that isn't helping me one bit. I guess there's nothing I can do but attempt to come to terms with my problems. Yep...there's definitely an F word coming.