Thursday, May 08, 2014

The Sacrifice of "Craze"



“My life feels out of control!”, I confessed to God, as I drove in to the office.  I have a 30 minute commute and even though the scenery is breathtakingly beautiful, it wasn’t enough to calm my restless spirit.

I’ve been grappling with an overpacked schedule, a few small physical challenges, a few more mental challenges, and coming to terms with my inability to juggle it all.

As I poured out my laundry list to God, I found myself running the gamut of issues, from teensy to gigantic, as we often do when we feel overwhelmed.  

I'll never get everything on my to-do list done today...

I'm too busy to keep my house perfectly like my friend does...

If I don't make it to the store today, it'll be Lucky Charms for dinner...

Dang, I'm out of grocery money... 

Maybe I shouldn't eat anyway.  I'm too fat...

Why haven't I saved more money...

We'll never be able to afford college for our son...

I'm going to die alone and broke...

...and on and on it goes.

Then after a momentary pity party, a humbling realization hit me.   Being in ministry, working hard to give priority time to my family, pushing myself out of my comfort box, and sometimes living in chaos, are choices I deliberately make.
  
Sometimes we sacrifice peace, low stress, and easy living in order to follow God's calling on our lives.
  
It's a sacrifice of "craze", given to God to let him rule our lives as He seems fit.  I could very easily skip church and clean my house spotless.  I could trade my time preparing Bible lessons for time at the gym, and I could certainly work more hours, make more money, socking it away in a retirement fund, rather than spend time volunteering with a mission organization.

We don't do these things because we're some kind of wonderful, extra-holy person.  We do them because God has put them before us and asked us to humbly serve him.  It's an honor, a calling, a privilege.  And, it requires sacrifice.  

So the humbling realization that hit me was...gratitude

Once I arrived at work and settled in to my desk, I decided to read a quick scripture before I started my day in earnest. I let the Bible App on my iPad suggest a random chapter and here’s what I got…

“My people will live in peaceful dwelling places,
in secure homes, in undisturbed places of rest.”
 - Isaiah 32:18

So, for now, I will remind myself that there will always be a to-do list, that a house can be cluttered, yet full of love, that "I have never seen the righteous forsaken or God's children begging bread.", and that Lucky Charms are "Magically Delicious".

It's my reasonable service, my sacrifice.  Maybe it's yours, too...

  

3 comments:

Darling Lopez said...

Dear sister Cari, which borders reflexcion, I identify a lot with her, thanks for sharing and recordanos each is God in us doing the things we do. as the apostle Paul says that God is faithful who put us in ministry. God bless you my pleasure to meet you life.

Cari Johnson said...

It was such a pleasure meeting you, Darling! God bless you in your ministry and I hope our paths will cross again!

Sponsor A Child said...

Amen, Cari, amen. Thank you for expressing my thoughts!

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